A Bit Of Difference
I hate my last episode.
I’m sorry, folks.
I hate a lot of the stuff I say
I hate a lot of the things I play
It’s in my nature to hate
What I make, I am
An imposter —
with a different face each day.
I am anonymous to all but fate
I disagree with myself. More than
All of your dissent combined I am
Not welcome, often, even in my own mind
When I speak I feel absolutely divine!
Perhaps I am a narcissist, a demon—
A diseased mind. Last Tuesday they said
I was going blind!
Pressure on my nerves, pain in my eye
Perhaps the dreams of dying are
Premonitions if some kind, I know I am not
So lucky, I am doomed to work and suffer
I will live a long life, maybe even two!
I will fluctuate between expertise and
What I thought I knew…
There is no point to suffering without learning a thing or two
I am wise, yet I am weak and stupid
I am confused, angry, obtuse and youthful
They say my vitamin d is low and I tried telling them
I’m a transgender man who used to be a
Fat butch woman and no matter what i
Try to change about myself, nothing makes
A bit of difference.