Ambience

I love spending time with me

No one here to mock or criticize

Just me and my dreams

Bubbling up like little guppies in a stream

All my hopes happening because I have

The time and energy to make them.

Tomorrow is my first weekend all to myself without any friends or family in town.

I used to be afraid and now I am

So spoiled I don’t know what to do with myself.

I just wish I had someone to share it with and

I don’t know why I’m like this

I do, but I don’t want to know

So I block it out. I don’t miss her but I do miss

Feeling like I had something figured out.

Now it’s just small problems and

Everything is fine all the time. Sometimes I think

I’m addicted to the chaos and the misery

Not even the person, just the ambience.