Cis Hetero People Have Been The Most Understanding, Welcoming and Supportive About My Transition
I mean, loads of them are fucking assholes–
But to be real with ya’ll– other queer people
Other trans people
People who stand at a gate and
Open and close it, those people–
Those are the ones I am the most frustrated with.
Are there loads of transphobic cis folk? Duh–
Are there loads of transphobic trans folk? More than
Anyone would like to admit.
So far I have bonded the strongest with
Cis women, when I was a cis woman, and
Cis men, now that I am a passing trans man.
Nonbinary people on the internet? I haven’t ever met them
IRL, to the point where it’s like
I don’t think most of them are actually even doing anything
Once they leave their apartments.
When I was between genders physically people stared at me
With reckless abandon, and
Lesbians were the most aggressive.
To this day the only people
Who have misgendered me to my face
Are gay men.
I’m starting to think that perhaps
My true allies
Are everyone else, anyone who is willing
To be honest and open.
Anyone who is willing to see my masculinity
As something that I enjoy having.
As long as cis hetero men are the enemy,
This trans hetero man is gonna have a hard time
Finding “community” anywhere as his authentic self, so
Lately I’ve decided
I’m going to be as closeted as I can be,
Just to give myself the peace
I finally deserve.
Ya’ll enjoy doing whatever the fuck you want to on this earth,
Just keep your grease out of my dirt.