Closeted

As long as non-binary identities

Exclude and ignore men who present

Masculine, there will never be any room

For anyone who was born female

To transcend their gender and become

More than just a woman.

As long as non-binary identities are tied to

The feminine, people will always see

My non-binary masculinity

As a woman

And I think that’s exactly why

I stopped telling anyone I’m non-binary

Unless they ask, which they never do

I’m trying to live as a man and

The only way I get to experience that

Is by hiding most of my past, present

Most of who I am

Sometimes I wonder if all of this is worth it

Considering how closeted I’ve become

In my attempt to be free I have had to hide

All of who I am.