Conception Conception
I’m like—
I want to have kids.
Then it’s like—
Wait—
I can’t.
Yes I can ?!?
I’m perfectly fertile just
Not in the way I want
God sucks sometimes I swear
She is a sick fuck.
I know adoption is
What the world needs but
What I need
Is someone related to me
Who can prove me wrong
About everything.
That’s what I’ve heard
Kids do, and let me tell you—
I am interested in that experience.
I am interested
In going broke because of
Baseball camp.
I am ready
For the next stage in my life
The next stage in my writing
The part where I write about
Them!
And us, and my thoughts, and all the ways
I cope with the experience.
I am almost to the point
Where it’s like
I’ll even just have sex the old fashioned way
Just to save some money—
I want to make sure my kid
Has a shot in hell with anything, and
I don’t know how that’s gonna work out
If I spend all of my money just trying to
Conceive of them.