I know I’m not supposed to say this but
Sometimes I deadname myself
In my own head
Or even dream as though I have never transitioned
I don’t really feel any different and sometimes I wonder if my
Subconscious hasn’t caught up yet.
Admitting it or even saying it makes me somehow feel
Less than, and yet I know that I am more than that.
Anyway. I don’t think it’s a huge deal but
I do think these dabs are strong enough
To give somebody a heart attack.