fArts/Judgement, Shame, Pity and…
A lot of my issues with fatphobia
Stem from my workplace, being
Is nonsense to me, considering
I’m usually wearing all black
Playing hidden in the back
Sometimes they even turn the lights off
And hook me up to a monitor
So that I am completely hidden from view —
Im a pit musician, that’s what
We fucking do.
Would it matter
What my body looks like?
It has always mattered.
It has always been
Something conductors, something
Judges and commenters
Have to say.
My weight and my body
Have nothing to do with my abilities
To play music. And yet—
This is something people see
As an obstacle in need of tackling
For the sake of improvement.
Whose life benefits
From all the constant nagging
From the constant negging
Why is it
That fat bodies
Aren’t allowed to complain
About being the butt of every joke
About the nonstop expectation to change
Why does it make you so uncomfortable
To hear that many fat people have healthy lifestyles
That they have healthy medical profiles
Why is it so hard to accept that
What is popular is not what is best
What is so hard to swallow
About some people being fat!!!
What is so difficult to understand
About each individuals body
Only being capable
Of so much change—
Why are you always entitled to my understanding,
But fat people are only entitled
To your judgement, shame,
Pity and rage?