From Hypersexual to Prude– Testosterone Is Just A Hormone, Dude.
Of all the things
Testosterone has done, I never expected it
To make me a prude.
The more I transition, the more I start to notice
That I am more asexual than I previously cared to acknowledge.
If anything, pre-transition
I was hypersexual, compensating almost–
Feeling a horniness no person or video
Could ever vanquish, and yet now
Two years on testosterone– wondering where the time has gone
What the point of having this dick is
If I don’t want to lay it onto anyone in particular.
I am very sexually attracted to my girlfriend, but
I am more repulsed by hypersexuality
Than I’ve ever been in my life. I am not
Actually a prude, guys– jesus christ
I’m just a lot more prudish than I was
Before I felt like myself inside.
I can’t be the only person in the world
Who has desires that make them feel worse
But I do think I might be one of the lucky few
Who’ve been there, and got through it
Held out long enough to become
Almost prudish– losing interest in sex
With each testosterone dose I take I am
Less interested in pleasing others now that I have
Pleased myself, appeased my identity
Made the curtains match the drapes
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