HSP and C-PTSD
Damn.
I feel read
Opened up also
Weirdly ashamed, like some sort of
Fucked up reflex I have
Whenever I recognize some truth
In myself.
Here I’ve been downplaying my emotions
This whole time
Because other people tell me they’re useless
But my emotions
And all that comes with them
Are simply a defense mechanism in place
That keeps me afloat when life tries to
Drown me.
I often feel as if my sensitivity
Is killing me but just like
The second and third weeks of top surgery
I think the pain will subside
If I’m able to stabilize
And heal, properly.
After years and years of
Trying to give myself a thicker skin
While trying to lose weight—
It might be time to recognize the irony.