I Can’t Imagine Being Black
If beings trans
Is anything, at all like
Transgressing a racial boundary
Then I can’t for the life of me
Imagine being black.
Gender is pre-assigned,
The same way race is pre-assigned
By god and her plan for what’s next, but
Thanks to modern medicine
I can, overtime, become a man
I hope to cross the other side
And experience their treatment.
Michael Jackson turned himself white—
But unless you are one of the
Richest and most successful pop stars
In modern history, comparable to
Pan himself, honestly— you probably
Won’t be able to be trans-race
Also arguably, Michael Jackson
Never achieved whiteness, despite a
Lifetime of efforts to achieve it.
Plenty of trans folk never pass—
I see parallels everywhere with this.
Again, I can’t imagine being black !
I don’t think any of them want to be white
I just can’t help but notice that
The protocols within society are alarming.
Except for Michael—who had a clear motivation
To try and be the white pop guy
To try and cross the fence that
White peoples built, constructed just right—
Just too high for the other side, but
Has steps built for us to traverse, “learn”, spectate—
Come back to our white.
I didn’t ask for this the same
But again, I have privilege
I have very pale, fair skin
My Transness does nothing about this
I am blessed beyond belief, however
I know that there are massive differences
Between where I am and from whence I came
I can’t imagine being black
Without the gaslighting driving me insane
I can’t even imagine, I mean —
There are no differences between us
Other than the ones we make