I Tried Reading “The Fire Never Goes Out”
But it’s so, so different from me, my life and my experiences.
It’s not like it’s gotta be the same
It’s just gotta be in a vein
I just couldn’t help but get overwhelmed
At the difference between
A thin queer perspective
And a fat one, like mine.
Where is all the trauma
I thought, why are people so nice
Why does she have friends who don’t
Bring her down
Maybe she did
Maybe she left that part out.
Or maybe he is more confident than I ever will be
Maybe they don’t give a shit and they shouldn’t have to— it’s their story
Seriously though I wondered
Why is it
That nobody tried to kill Nimonas dream
The way mine get slaughtered
By everyone and anyone jealous of me
Also why isn’t there more
Crippling self doubt
Mixed with anger and contempt
For themselves and everyone in it…?