At the end of the day it’s like—
Who’s brainwashing who, here, folks
With what, how, when and why ?
Way I see it
“I’m a boy” as loud and clear as I could
But I was told
“There there sweetie, no you aren’t—
Put your dress on now let’s go to church,
Act like the good little girl you are !”
Yeah fucking right y’all.
Maybe I had to sit there and watch as
My dad gained four hundred pounds while constantly being told
I was eating too much.
Maybe I sat there and marveled
At how someone gets to be
The fattest pig in the room and
Not a soul alive is allowed to mention it
Because it’s against the rules
The man of the house gets respect
No one else is entitled to, and somehow
Are brainwashing the youth.
If anything I was just
A normal kid who was
Brainwashed into conforming to
The closest thing I could want to be—
And yet I’ll never achieve
That kind of ideology
Only exists for gatekeeping.
You know— the good ol family patriarchy
It’s sole purpose is to “keep order”
Makes me sad that so many queer people
Lost in the sea of hopelessness and trying to make sense of it
Gatekeep and ostracize and pick and choose
Who they want “representation wise”
It’s the exact same shit
That made me want to jump ship
Lately I’ve been seeing
A whole lot of crossover
Between queers who grow up in
Strict conservative culture and religion
And transgender identity, mixed with
Maybe it’s just because it’s where I came from but
There has to be some crossover
Between homophobia present in your day to day life
And the desire to switch genders just to make things nice and tidy.
Maybe it’s just the reason I waited so long I didn’t want
Intolerance to be why I transitioned but
The intolerance was there all along.
To ignore it is to deny so many problems.