I don’t know what to say, what to do.
I’m not hopeless, I’m not lost, I’m just confused.
I’m ashamed, overwhelmed, at times consumed by
Regret, anger, hatred. I wish I had never
Wasted so much of my life but at least I have my
Learnings now that I can take
Wherever I go. The next one
Won’t be able to do this so I don’t have to worry about it happening
Again, but honestly
It already did. This was the second time.
At this stage in my life I am learning that
I will be learning the whole time.