My Ex Shat On Me Until She Had Enough Confidence To Talk To Men
People are very familiar with the trope
Of a young man practicing and building his romantic skills
On a woman he doesn’t respect or admire.
For the sake of confidence I guess
But that happened to me
With men
And with women.
And with friends!
People love to boost their confidence
With a fat punching bag
And then blame the fat punching bag
For hating itself.
It’s like, just a normal thing
Nobody cares—
Was it hot and fun and enjoyable
For my ex to disrespect me and blow all those guys
And cheat on me so much with so many drugs
Addling her ability to say “I fucked up and I’m sorry”?
I think it absolutely was.
I know I gave her the confidence
To bloom, and I know
She chose to poop
All over me
As some sort of representation
Of who she used to be— much like
Trans people do to their relationships from
Past genders.
Did my ex
Shit on me
Until she lost enough weight
To get a man?
Absolutely she did
And knowing what I know about myself
I bet it’s fucking common.