My Healthy, Healthy Blood/Checkpoint
I think if you were to
Boil down my beef into a
Stock you’d find that
I just wish people would acknowledge
How much work
Someone can put in to their body
Themselves and their health and their life
And still not get the results
Deemed successful in the public eye.
My efforts show
In my blood work. I have had blood work done
Regularly since I started becoming
Super morbidly obese as a child I
Had cushings and
Unfortunately, cortisol testing
Is extremely difficult to pinpoint.
Blood work doesn’t do much good, I had to have
My urine collected, my saliva tested
Sure I had cortisol blood tests done but
They aren’t as useful, it’s about
Cortisol rhythm.
Something I don’t have
Great luck with. Anyway
My blood used to be
Flagged but now it’s
Never discussed because
It’s goddamn healthy as fuck.
My healthy, healthy blood.
Sugars on point
Cholesterol managed
CBC, red blood cell count, you name it—
In range. Not just in range —
Fucking great.
Nobody cares about
My healthy healthy blood as much as they care about
My waist.
I will do my best not to
Spit in your face
When I do my next cortisol test or my next
Pituitary check I have
So much disdain
For those who don’t understand
How healthy and how hard
A fat fuck can work
While still being extremely overweight.
Progress
Is progress —
Not a picture
Not a selfie
Not a moment but
A check point in the race.