Not A Visible Achievement
Ex fats much like
Are forced to perform happiness
Even if they are fucking miserable.
My ex for example—
Can’t get through the weekend without
Rolling and drinking, can’t go
To a concert without drugs
Can’t write an article
That isn’t about discipline and yet
Has none to speak of.
Can’t take a picture
Without smiling, and yet
The moment the camera is down
The phone is out, the frown is back
Pics or it didn’t happen, go ahead
And take a picture so people will have something
To be jealous of, the way
You are whenever you see
Anyone thinner and prettier than you
Much like trans people
Ex fats start the process of fitting in
Which, is a feeling
Not a visible achievement.
Ahhh but the pants fit right
Too bad so sad about the depression, anxiety
And years of your life dedicated to something
Everyone else starts with.