Opportunity/Being Fucking Miserable…

Only way to put it is that I

Had top surgery

And immediately

I knew I wasn’t someone

I could be, and I wasn’t

Who I wanted to be—

But now I am

Now I have that opportunity.

All those impossibilities before…?

Possible, not just possible —

But normal and boring.

It’s like I was hiding my own face

My own self my own personality

For 30 years before I finally

Took off the mask and started to live

It’s like I learned to talk

For the first time, learned to walk

Again without fear and shame in stride

I am my own man and

He needs to meet more people

I need to make up for all the time I lost

Being fucking miserable.