Opportunity/Being Fucking Miserable…
Only way to put it is that I
Had top surgery
And immediately
I knew I wasn’t someone
I could be, and I wasn’t
Who I wanted to be—
But now I am
Now I have that opportunity.
All those impossibilities before…?
Possible, not just possible —
But normal and boring.
It’s like I was hiding my own face
My own self my own personality
For 30 years before I finally
Took off the mask and started to live
It’s like I learned to talk
For the first time, learned to walk
Again without fear and shame in stride
I am my own man and
He needs to meet more people
I need to make up for all the time I lost
Being fucking miserable.