Pansexual Demisexual

At first I was like —

I want to have sex without feelings but

I can’t do that. I don’t get aroused.

Not even a little bit.

The feelings are what arouse me.

Sigh. The realization was a bit

Devastating. Maybe some gender dysphoria

Was in the mix or maybe

I’m with the wrong partner but I doubt it.

He’s hot and perfect and a gentleman.

I could also be just

Not gay, but I doubt that as well—

Pansexual fits the bill.

I’m attracted to the bond I feel.

I fucking hate it.

I want to be a slut for a while.