At first I was like —
I want to have sex without feelings but
I can’t do that. I don’t get aroused.
Not even a little bit.
The feelings are what arouse me.
Sigh. The realization was a bit
Devastating. Maybe some gender dysphoria
Was in the mix or maybe
I’m with the wrong partner but I doubt it.
He’s hot and perfect and a gentleman.
I could also be just
Not gay, but I doubt that as well—
Pansexual fits the bill.
I’m attracted to the bond I feel.
I fucking hate it.
I want to be a slut for a while.