Performative Profile
I’m confused are we
Fighting for the right
To be respected for our gender identities–
Or are we fighting against our
Own bodies to control and change
Malleate ourselves into
An exterior that matches
What some insist are their
Interior, and yet
I feel almost exactly the same
No matter what kind of hormones run in my veins.
Hmmmm I am confused
Why is it that my exterior is
My gender identity again?
I thought it was the way I felt,
Who I am, not
The shape of my hips, the size
Of my tits, the length of my dick.
Why do I have to go on a journey
Of “self-acceptance”
In the name of some superficial nonsense?
Is that what manhood is?
I thought it was something else, my bad
Anyway, sometimes I feel like
I’m the only trans person
Who doesn’t want to bully anyone
Into looking a certain way
Who doesn’t want to have a photo gallery
Who doesn’t want to have a youtube
Where sitting there
As a body on camera
Is most of what you do
I don’t think that is representation
I don’t see my own body as
Representative of your body
That’s called projecting
And I really wish
Ya’ll would stop accusing me of projecting
My insecurities
When the truth is
You all are nonstop
365 year round
Posting videos, vlogs, pics and selfies
About how looking a certain way
Gives you euphoria
And how easy it is
For someone to trigger you
With a mismatched pronoun–
Guess what folks,
People misgender cis folks all the time
Getting called the wrong thing
Usually just means whoever is talking to you
Is working overtime, and
If they’re not, if they’re some
Rich fuck snob, they’re just being
A transphobe with a
Performative profile