Physical Bodies/Physical Changes/NB Representation/Barnum and Bailey
I think a big part of why
There only seems to be
AFAB NB representation
Is because, at least
If you’re taking HRT–
The prescription you get
Will have a different effect
Than a different prescription, for
AMAB with different goals.
You don’t magically turn into
Something in-between that
Everyone easily recognizes and knows.
The prescriptions for nonbinary HRT
Are the exact same as any other trans individual–
Set by a doctor, with strict dosage windows. (HOPEFULLY!!!!)
You can’t control what HRT does to your body, and
You can’t try and sugar-pill that sense of control
Maybe the only reason
All nonbinary people are
AFAB bodies with pink hair
That is what people want to look like
When they start their transition…?
Or perhaps the answer is more sinister,
Perhaps the only “nb” representation we get
Besides amab’s in dresses
Is the sort of change
The eye can detect.
You almost need to be
Stuck on appearances
To even be allowed into the gender party nowadays–
The bodies with the most noticeable changes
Are the bodies on thick, oily testosterone
What you can see–
Seems to be
The only acceptable proof of identity
For most of the population.
So again, this problem
Of AFAB bodies dominating non-binary representation
I’m not sure if it’s because of the reason
I used to think. Now I’m more suspicious
That the cis require us
To be proper barnum and bailey
For us to hold their attention.