Recurring Dread/Nothing that I’m Worried About Is Actually Happening

Not quite a nightmare not quite a daydream just

Some weird fake thing

I keep “forgetting and remembering”

I keep thinking I’m

Behind on my courses and

Not going to be able to pass

Unless I enroll in a science or a math

I need a credit to graduate but I’ve been doing nothing

But gender studies and painting and music and poetry

Then I realize I’m in my 30’s with

Two completed degrees and

Nothing that I’m worried about is actually happening.

Meanwhile people are picketing

My right to healthcare

In every state in some way shape or form

For either gender or sex I could present as

So idk

Like I said

Nothing that I’m worried about is actually happening —

I think it’s oddly saner for me to worry about fake things.