Recurring Dread/Nothing that I’m Worried About Is Actually Happening
Not quite a nightmare not quite a daydream just
Some weird fake thing
I keep “forgetting and remembering”
I keep thinking I’m
Behind on my courses and
Not going to be able to pass
Unless I enroll in a science or a math
I need a credit to graduate but I’ve been doing nothing
But gender studies and painting and music and poetry
Then I realize I’m in my 30’s with
Two completed degrees and
Nothing that I’m worried about is actually happening.
Meanwhile people are picketing
My right to healthcare
In every state in some way shape or form
For either gender or sex I could present as
So idk
Like I said
Nothing that I’m worried about is actually happening —
I think it’s oddly saner for me to worry about fake things.