Recurring Dream

When I was a kid I had this recurring dream where I was with my neighbor friends who were two boys about my age.

We were all floating in a boat, and suddenly, a second boat appeared

They both left my boat, got onto theirs and said

“Come with me!”

But I couldn’t. I thought maybe

If I get on this boat, they will try to kiss me

So I stayed in my boat and

Ever since, I have been lonely.

Then I transitioned and now

There are people pulling their

Metaphorical boats up all around me, offering me

Routes and even some fishing.

I wrote this dream down when I was a kid because I had it

About every day for two weeks.

It only took me until my 30th birthday to realize

What it means.