Relationship Telephone Game/Variables
I can’t separate the variables —
Here are some sex drive observations.
Transitioning has been bizarre.
First few t shots I was unstoppable and then
It tapered off.
Now that I’m out of that relationship I know that
I can’t separate the variables. The results are from both.
My sex drive steadily decreased for most of my transition
More than two years now it seems. Possibly three. I don’t pay attention.
Simultaneously my relationship seemed to do
Nothing but struggle
Family strains, death, hormones, surgeries, health catastrophes —
Jobs lost. Plural.
How many ways can someone’s perspective change
Without becoming someone you don’t know ?
It was like a fucked up game of telephone except
The subject was my identity as a man.
At the end of 9 years we had very different dialogues going
Simultaneously. Conflict about absolutely everything
Unable to see each other the same way
Who could’ve possibly stayed ….?
I often didn’t know to whom she was referring—
Me, or some stranger
Neither of us recognized each other by the end of it.