Representation Matters…

Part of me is like

There are so few fat trans bodies being represented—

I should just plaster the internet

With photos of myself

And accept whatever happens.

Most of me is like

There are so few fat trans bodies being represented—

Because if they show themselves they are mocked and ridiculed

The way fat cis bodies are

I should just plaster the internet

With poems about it.

Then part of me is like

There are so few fat trans bodies being represented—

How much sooner

Would I have transitioned

If I had seen a single person do it

Besides Chaz bono, a celebrity child

That can make anything he wants happen.

Part of me knows

That I could be a a step in someone else’s journey

And part of me knows

How many other people will step on me

And go nowhere but backwards.

All of me wants to show my top surgery results

Largely due to the fact

That they are incredible

I think perhaps someday

Everyone will see and understand and know

That fat bodies aren’t more or less trans

Than thin bodies

And just because you’re trans

Doesn’t mean you’re progressing

Towards a common goal, towards some sort of

Social value measured on Instagram.