Sexist Bullshit
I just want to understand why it is
That transgender, the term
What it means and the associations that come with it
Are always first and foremost associated with, and
Used
In reference to trans women,
The very people who insist
They are not men, taking
Leadership roles in a movement
They created, for the liberation
Of “all trans people—
Especially the kids!!”
But whenever an ftm perspective
Speaks out about the differences
Between being a trans woman and a trans man
He gets called a bigot idiot
Given the “bad husband” treatment
Which, in all seriousness
Is starting to feel
Exactly the same as the other sexist bullshit
I experienced as a woman.
I often feel like
I am asking for a spot at the table
Being told I’m fat, taking up
Too much of everything, only to look over
And see the exact same people feasting on
The same things they told me I was overeating—
Double-fisting narcissism with contempt
For anyone that gets in their way
Not all trans women are like this—
But I know first hand
That whenever I talk about trans issues
IRL— to cis folk or just people at the blood bank—
My words are always second, always less important
Than their trans woman friend who has
More confidence than she has trauma,
It’s always the expectation
For me to rise to her level,
Pacemakers for the community
I want to understand
What it means to be a man
In a time where men are
Pigs, thieves and traitors
All while the ones who
Embrace their feminine are somehow
Our saviors.