Sometimes I’m like
Being trans is so fucked—
If anyone knows too much about you
It changes the way they see you
And then it’s as if you are back where you were
No matter how far you’ve felt your soul go,
No matter how comfortable the new normal.
It’s like you have to give people
Half of yourself
Because otherwise they’d treat you differently.
Its not that I can’t it’s that
I want some peace for myself !
I want a piece of happiness.
I want something that actually feels right
And not half right half lonely.
I hesitate to say things like
“Being trans gives you a higher state of consciousness
A higher state of awareness”
Because truth is not everyone is like this but also
Anxiety is a real fucking thing but
Who wouldn’t be anxious
Being halved, daily.