Still Hurts

Talking to partnered people about

Things their partner does for them and

I’m feeling the most intense mix of feelings

Sadness, grief, resentment, relief

I’m sad she never celebrated me.

I’m sad she never was able to care

About anything but herself.

I’m sad I’m the one with the cute memories

I’m the one with the cake stories and the

Birthday surprises

But I’m glad to be single and

Available and

I know more about what kind of standards

I deserve.

Just still hurts.

I almost miss the days where I felt nothing but

Longing, and loneliness

It’s better when you get to daydream about marital bliss than when

You get scarred from it.