The Moment She Started Fucking Around

The most upsetting thing

About my ex girlfriend

Is that she didn’t seem to understand

That I wasn’t less than her, and that

She was an idiot. Lmfao.

Like I didn’t know

She was rolling

When she was rolling, or like

I didn’t know she was hungover

Or like

I didn’t know

That when she refused to let me

Eat her pussy

That I knew then

Without a doubt

She was cheating !

I hated everything about that relationship

In retrospect, it is a large part

Of what motivates me to speak out.

Women— can be abusive

To themselves while being

Twice as abusive to others

Gaslight you just the same

Not having a dick

Or wanting one

Just gives everyone’s argument

Twice as much leverage

In the end.

I think when I was fucking her face

With a dildo

And then she shamed me for wanting to be

Trans, wanting to be a man, wanting to have

Testosterone—

I should have known more then

Than I do now

But I always knew

The moment she started fucking around.