Thinking Out Loud/Goddamn If I Was Cis/Connecting
So the Leo I mean
What the hell.
She’s really playing a lot of cards
She calls me…? After work I’m like
Should I call hr…?
Or should I just ask her what she’s doing
goddamn if I was Cis
I dunno what I would do with this.
I’d probably not be
In this job, or in this situation
To begin with, so perhaps
I should focus on what I want
Because that’s what’s real.
I want the girls that don’t talk to me
The ones that come on to me forwardly are
Strange to me. Why ?
I am the monster I do not
Get asked on dates. I have to chase
Something coming this easily towards me
Is suspect to say the least.
I keep being like
I hate politics in Florida.
So what if your neighbors are on hormonal medications.
Mind your own business.
I love queer people but I am not gay.
I just got out of a really bad relationship and a
Worse breakup. Please keep your distance
It’s suspect If they aren’t running
No matter how much draws them towards me
I often wonder why anyone would want me
Which, again, seems to be why I date
The wrong kind of people. But
How can I tell if they are or are not
The right kind
Based on nothing but my gut?
It’s been wrong too many times
I don’t know enough to know
I’m not alright with being pursued
I’d rather keep being rejected by
People who are wrong for me
At least that way I don’t have to risk