Too Fat/Not Fat Enough
My whole life–
Not fat enough!
Too fat to be respected
Not fat enough to complain about it.
Too fat for healthcare, too fat for medicine
Not fat enough for my discrimination to matter.
You aren’t really fat
Until you’re in a wheelchair at walmart
Like Nikocado Avocado makes fun of.
At what point will you all recognize
The anxiety you project onto fat bodies
It is not their problem–
I have been photographed against my will in locker rooms
I have been harassed by people
Walking to and from rehearsal
Walking to and from class
Sitting on the bus, in childhood and in adulthood
Planes, trains, and automobiles–
Words for opportunities for the worst experiences
A fat person can have–
My career, my personal life, my friendships–
All negatively impacted.
Why do fat people hide, why do we
Why make a podcast and blog
As a fat body and wait for
Years before you fully come out
As who you are?
Because of you all–
Too fat, not fat enough nonsense.
I’ve been fat enough to be discriminated against
My entire life, and I will continue to try and lose weight
Because I want my fat ass on the top of the tallest highest fucking mountain someday
14,000ft was not enough for me I need to get
Higher, and be heckled harder
Climbing up a new peak.
You are all some of the worst people
I’ve ever met, and
I don’t give a single fuck about
Any of ya’lls weight–
I just want you to stop discriminating against me
Whether I’m too fat, or not fat enough–
It shouldn’t make a fucking difference.