Took Me A While But Now I See It
My whole life people been telling me
Why? How? I’m so funny and
I literally couldn’t hurt someone if I tried I have many times and I usually
Just cave and cry.
I can be defensive and if you
Come for me in a way that I think is petty
I’ll dish you back something, so I guess that makes me
Intimidating. If you prefer me to be
A doormat, or a sad sap, or some kind of
Piece of trash that you can throw away
I might be inclined to say something on my behalf–
I don’t think that’s crass.
But the other problem is I just have so many dreams
I have so many goals I do so many things
That alone can be intimidating. Often times people just assume I’m lazy
Because I’m fat, and that sets me off. I don’t enjoy that.
I’m not any of the negative things I am loudly
On a mission and I guess now I am starting to see
Why to some I might be intimidating.
I don’t settle for anything.
I see beyond so easily and I articulate it clearly
When I voice my opinions at work or with friends sometimes
They get quiet and
Intimidate me into silence.
See, that’s the part I don’t understand
When you want to share insights but
They aren’t popular, or whatever. I don’t know I think it’s just that
An expectation is set by a certain perspective I have no control over and then
It’s overturned, and I either benefit from it or I don’t.
I just wish I could speak to people directly, the way
I see others get to. I wish it were easier but I also
Can’t be any other way than this, I am simply built like this.
I have always been asking things too personal and
Making people laugh just because
I love the response I get. I love an audience
I am a bit of a superstar in hiding so
Maybe that’s it.