Totally Different and Exactly The Same/Times Have Changed
Truthfully
I didn’t think
Being a man would be
This different.
It alarms and astounds me.
When I see people post
About how their lives
Are the same, no different
Since transitioning or since
Detransitioning—
I wonder what it is
They are talking about—
Are they talking about
The way they feel?
Because
Inside
I am identical.
I am the same, no different
There is no change in
Who I am
Just how I am perceived
By other people.
That—
That perception
The comparison of
Me verses
A cis man
Is my reality, and sometimes
I forget
How transphobic
The people in my life used to be
Before I had to get rid of everyone
Who didn’t respect the man in me—
It wasn’t difficult to do
It wasn’t tricky
All I had to do
Was stop talking to
The handful of people
Who never respected
My masculinity to begin with.
The truth is—
People who don’t respect
Fat men— don’t respect
Hardly anyone.
Because—Well—
Most men are fat!
So that only leaves
Teenage girls, wives, other similar guys —
Everyone else is the shame of America
Come to life
Lmfao
I just
I find it really upsetting
That there are people
Undeniably participating
In the quest for
A thinner, younger, leaner look
Who are using trans rights
As a crutch to modify their lives
It’s not in the groupthink
To shame people questing
For shallow improvements
But it’s always allowed, always permitted
In the group think
To shame people for looking
Fat, old, and disinteresting.
They even Filmed a whole documentary
About Billy Milligan
Where they interviewed
All of the old fat Ohioans
With “far away, “interesting” creative backgrounds”
To me it was striking
How far away they needed to be
In order to make things more
“Palatable” for the “viewer”
Times aren’t a changing—
Times have changed.