Transitioning Is Fucking Hard/Subtractions/Out Of Sorts
Just saying.
I dunno it’s like
Damned if you do damned if you don’t.
I’m glad I did but
Some days
I feel damned.
So broken.
Anyway I guess some people have
A euphoric experience I
Don’t and I haven’t although
There are moments I feel like
A lady with no tits and
A man with no dick.
Perhaps because that’s what I am
Nothing but subtractions
I feel contractually obligated to say
I enjoy this however the truth is
I’m fine, and before I was miserable.
I don’t know if that’s something
Everyone should deal with and
I do think it’s complicated
I know sex matters and
I know gender matters and
I know that all of this is just
Stuff that is
But goddamn if there aren’t days
And moments
When I wonder if I’m
Healing at all considering how
Inflammatory some of the therapies are.
Anyway I just recently
Stopped having hives from the
Gel that was giving me new life and
I don’t want to talk about it
Or even rhyme
I’m just sad and feeling
Out of sorts, all the time.