Ulterior Motive/Online Trans Community
I mean if you don’t
Have struggles with the struggle then
Are you really struggling ?
Way I see it the online trans community
Likes to make weird German scat porn
With everyone who agrees to be in it
And I just
Am not into it.
I fucking hate it.
So gross. Poop is just a full stop, personally.
I’ve been so focused on everything in my life that matters that
I’ve had to take
“The online trans community”
Off the back burner
And into the back yard
Where I had a bon-voyage bonfire
And said Jk nvm see you later
To everything about myself besides
What I cherished so much I couldn’t bear part with.
Now that I have my bare essentials I just
Really don’t give a shit
About anybody else’s process.
I don’t want to see tips
I don’t want to see your hormone progress
I never have, to be honest !
I was simply angry enough to change
Because I was fucking miserable
And now I’m not—
So I’m going on
To live, for the first time ever
If anything gets between me
And my happiness
I fucking throw it in the bonfire. I’ve wasted
28-30 some odd years being miserable
I do not have the time to waste
On contrarian idiots who dig trans rights’ graves
For the hope and sake of mild to moderate internet fame.
I’m over all of it.
I hope people find my blog and shit at some point
And realize that there was at least one person
Who was sharing their transition simply to
Try and make sense of it, simply to
Shoot the shit and toast marshmallows
Smoke some joints and muse some musings
Normal fucking real shit
No ulterior motive.