Unwanted
I’ve been various stages of unwanted
For most of my life. I have been so immersed in
The feeling of being a burden, the shame of being hidden
The distaste for my very flesh and face and skin
It’s been hard for me to trust anyone that loves me
I am so energizing I am so passionate I am so
Desirable in every way someone can be and none of it matters besides
What people see. Not because I’ve been unlucky
But because all of the people that have been with me
See my body before my soul and what I’m looking for is a
Mate for my soul. I want to feel love that comes from within
When I am around someone. I want to feel like
They love me for who I am and support that man
They insist I am better than I see myself as not
Worse than. I cannot afford to be in any more relationships
That leave me feeling so unwanted
Therefore I will wait until I find the one
God himself sent. If no one comes
I am already with him.