What’s Happening
When things get
Really, really bad
Like
WW3 bad
Like, emergency back surgery bad or
The denial of the denying kind of bad
Any of the things that make me
Walk to the peak and
Look down, around, instead of
Getting over, the kind of bad
That makes you feel so stuck
There is no hope of options
I try to focus on
What’s happening
Immediately around me
I try and seek and grasp
Firm footing within my own head
Somehow, the only way
I’ve found to reliably do that
Is to focus on
What’s happening right now
Not what happened before
Or what you wish you had done
Or what you think you should do
Next— quite simply
What’s happening
Right now.
When I finally clean up enough
To remember
That right now, is right now
And then was then
All the interpretations seem kind of
Superfluous. None of it matters as much as
What right now is
Now, is still
Now is a moment
Now is something
So instantaneous
You don’t need to ask
Anyone about it. Or read
Anything, or consider
Much at all, you just live
Right now
For a while. I dunno maybe
It’s too vague and it’s too useless and
It won’t help you, but
Lately I’ve been worrying so much
About so many things —
All I can handle is
What’s happening.